Amanda's English Blog: May 2010

Monday, May 10, 2010

Example essay-3 ways to be a bad parent from my point of view

Saying that you’re a bad parent doesn’t sound like a very good thing to be saying about yourself, but I have accepted the mistakes I have made throughout my life. Not only have I accepted them, but I have learned from them and prevented future mistakes that could ruin my life. There are three ways that I was a bad parent to my children. Not taking advice from elders, not putting my children first, and being irresponsible in general.

When my mother tried to tell me what to do, or gave me some motherly advice, I would ignore it or do the opposite of what she told me to do, just because I felt like it. I was always stubborn growing up, and was always rebellious with everyone and everything. I think most kids are that way with their parents though, but you would think that when I grew up and got older and had my own kids, that I would grow out of that phase of my life. No, not me, I actually got worse in the rebellious stage. It affected my children now, and the stakes were definitely higher and I had more to lose this time around.
When I left my husband, the father of my two girls, to be with my new boyfriend seven years younger than me, I made the biggest mistake of my life. I didn’t see what I was doing to my children, basically abandoning them for another man other than their father. I was blind to what I was doing to them by not being a responsible adult and take care of their needs before anyone else’s was my responsibility and I failed as a mother.

When I was sixteen years old, I had a part-time job, had my license and a car and was very responsible for my age. I believe the reason for this had to do with my childhood and how I had to constantly take care of my sister and watch out for my Mom at an early age. I was basically my sister’s mother and my father abused us in multiple ways. When I finally had children for my own, I slowly became more irresponsible as I got more depressed with my life. When I look back and reflect at the situation I realize that I just wanted my kids and I wanted to leave my husband a long time before I actually left, and that I repressed those feelings a long time. It’s very unhealthy and dangerous to do that because things could have ended up worse than they were, but I ultimately lost my children because of my genius decisions.
Now it will take years to make up for the mistakes I have made to my children. They are not a part of my life now because of the horrible things I let happen around them and I will take responsibility for that. I am learning my lesson still to this day and I will never stop learning how to be a better person, and the best Mom I can be for my children. It’s always going to be a work in progress but I know they will come back to me some day soon.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Friends

Geromy asks me “why don’t you have more friends, or why don’t you try to meet more girls to hang out with?” Or why don’t you go out and have a good time with the girls tonight? And I think to myself, Huh, how come, I don’t call some friends and go out; and get crazy shit-faced tonight? Well, I know the answer to that question, and I already know the end result, deep down and I hate it. I like calling my friends, I have three that I talk to on a daily basis and God love them, really, but in the end I always end up getting hurt somehow. I have had years of experience trusting many girls and guys for the record but the track record isn’t too good. I give and give, and sometimes receive and try not to let it bother me when it’s a one way street all the time, but it does suck.
I try to ignore the requests for money at all different times of the day, and intoxicated persons harassing us for money and constant favors being asked of me. I tell myself that it’s ok to help people out and we all have our ups and downs. I have learned some valuable lessons with trusting certain people and being let down and being able to trust someone completely and not having to go through that again. I can move on to the next step. I love my friends and will always be there to lend a helping hand in time of need, but many will consider me very harsh and abrupt when stating this. I will not now, nor will I ever tolerate an obnoxious drunk showing up at my door hollering and banging fists on the door and kicking the door and screaming/hollering for no reason and waking us both up from a sound sleep at 7 AM on Sunday AM.
I realize that answering the door with a 7 “ blade- Wolfgang Puck Series kitchen knife is a little off but when I get woken up too early, when I’m trying to get quality time with my man who normally works 70 hours a week. Ya, I was pissed, and it was just a gut reaction to grab the knife on the way to the door (all in one sweeping motion) to swing the door open and fling the knife in their face. Instead of getting angry, I decided to go the other way and accept the whole incident as a “special” circumstance and forget it. It’s really not worth the fight, because I need to learn how to be more relaxed and not uptight anyway. Friends can make people happy, but they can also ruin your day if things don’t go just so, sometimes. It is certainly worth trying to make a few friends along the way. Even if you do get hurt once in a while. I always tell myself that I need to trust more people and distrust less. It has been a struggle for several years but my knight in shining armour has shown me the trusting side of people not always the negative.

WHAT IS GOING HAPPEN IN THE YEAR 2012

Amanda Hamblen

Eng101, College Composition

April 21, 2010

John Goldfine

BACKGROUND

I remember when I was growing up, in the winter, the snow would get as high as my waist and it was so fun to play in. That was in the early 80's and it was my first memory of extreme weather in my lifetime. There is going to be a major disruption on Earth but it is already happening now, every time you turn the news on, a reporter is covering a story on a tragic earthquake that killed thousands of people in Haiti. Giant Tsunami's sweep the other side of the world that killed a lot of people. Weather patterns are messed up because of ozone deterioration and pole shifting in the arctic's. Yeah, I agree that there is several possible outcomes with this 2012 problem and some may disagree with me because of fear. I ask you to keep an open mind reading through my isearch paper. All of my information came from reputable sources and persons of education and expertise. I want to state that this is by far; this is NOT the End of the World, I just want people to know and prepare for a disaster because it is very likely we will all go through it, within the next few years.

The way I am going to prepare for this event will not be going to extreme measures. I will not be looking for a big mountain to dig a cave in to live for a while but I will be stocking up on lots of basic necessities. We will be getting about 35 five gallon jugs of water that are sealed from the bottling factory and store them in our parent's attic or basement. We have this big red trunk box that has locks on it for security. It is full of items such as 2 first aid kits, flashlights, batteries in all sizes, candles, a survival cooking stove that breaks down and can be transported easily, packaged food that is preserved and can be stored and good for over a year at least. Army food is what it basically is, except it's not the army. It is sold in recreation stores and outdoor gear stores such as R.E.I sports equipment in Bethesda Maryland. This is where most of the food and survival gear came from. We have been slowly generating items of interest for survival or a disaster situation. Because we have dragged it out for a while, the cost doesn't seem that bad overall. The most expensive item was the water filter; it was about a hundred and thirty dollars. It is the most important item of all in a disaster situation.

So one of the things that we figured out right off the bat was there was unanswered questions in the Old Testament. So what would be relevant would be how do we prove there were 40 days and 40 nights? When you find out the Great Flood was written about in every ancient civilization. What you find out is that it has happened four times in history prior to Noah's Ark. If that's happened before, and it's happened at the exact spacing of time, it would make sense we are going to go through another turbulent time roughly around 2012, based off following:

The myan calendar, The Bible, and the Egyptian faith. So it is very likely, if we open our eyes and minds to the that possibility that every ancient civilization has warned us that us that will occur. We should be able to conclude that it is inevitable that history will repeat itself again. I think and am certain that there will be some type of disruption in the global economy.

THE SUMMARY

I chose to write my isearch paper on the controversial topic of 2012. My boyfriend and I have been researching this topic already for over a year. The main question I have is what exactly will happen to our planet between now and the year 2012? For about 2 years I have been researching and reading books on ancient astronomy and discovering all the connections between the two. My belief in all the information I have researched is that I am unsure of what the future is to come, and I know that there are many scenario's that could take place. Either which way it leads, I want my family to be prepared in the end. I don't really care if people think I'm nuts for gathering water and food and safety items for the future. I would rather be prepared and laughed at, than unprepared and accepted.

THE SEARCH

For the last few years I have become interested in astrophysics and the 2012 saga. Some information I had learned prior to being assigned the isearch. My boyfriend and I would always watch N.A.S.A. programs, and what I learned shocked me. I can't believe I had no idea that this has been proven together by scientists and kept me interested for many hours and wanting to know more. There were several ways I obtained my information. The first way was the easiest, the internet. Who can't type in some words and get all the information at your fingertips. That is self explanatory; I googled 2012. The hits were outrageous on this subject, and the opinions differ from black to white. Some believe, some don't. That's just the way life goes. I researched topics like the planet Niribu the twelfth planet and NASA says warning signs are blatantly obvious of the super solar storm headed for our future. US scientific studies have been out for years proving the solar theories and the government knows all about it and doesn't even deny it anymore. I used a few websites for reference in this isearch paper. I started out with Google to start the search, then I went into Zecharia Sitchin's website and learned some new information about our past ancient ancestors the Annunaki or the Sumerians could have gone through a similar situation as we are headed towards in 2012. They may have left us clues as to how to deal with the solar flare problems ahead. Some researchers; such as Zecharia Sitchin a London University graduate with a major in ancient culture and history, think they are an important piece to our history regardless of whether we are in any kind of danger with the upcoming events or not. Some of the books he has written are called "End of Days," "The Twelfth Planet," "The Earth Chronicles," and "The Lost Realms, " just to name a few. A website www.umsonline.org was a source of information on this theory as well. A

Professor and expert in metaphysics named Michio Kaku from Boston, MA had a video on YouTube warning people of the recent discovery of scientific evidence that the solar flares are worse than thought previously. He outright admitted on the video that "they" the (scientist's) "made a mistake" about the calculation of the solar storm of 2013-1014. It is advancing rapidly and getting stronger and seeming more dangerous as time moves on. This new revelation is described as a sleeping giant, or as the calm before the storm.

Relax, I'm not saying we are not all going to die or we should be afraid of what's going to happen. No, I am simply telling what I know personally and will tell you some ways I will prepare myself for the next few years to come. I want to be a survivor and it is of great importance to me to learn everything important so I can help my family live safely through this change with Earth in the future years.